life

its my sisters birthday party now.. though 3 days late.
family's over and so are a few of my sisters friends..


so there was the xinfony on friday..
cab-ed down to raffles to meet my darlings.. then et leon and off to victoria..
sat with ira and the malay girls on my left and darlings on my right..
the concert itself was kinda boring.. past my time there pretending to be the conductor.
first half were pieces by the main band.. though its like nice to sit and watch the music being played live, it gets kinda boring after some time.. the audience were getting restless and it was shown quite clearly, chatters everywhere..
i wonder how some people bear to part with like 3figure sums to listen to certain musicians playing their pieces.. id rather spend that amount on food and shoppin..
so like during the interval went to the toilet with maylin..
ira left during the halftime..
then after the whole concert went to laopasat for supper.
b4 that was the mistake i'd regret for life.
i dont know what you guys would think of me after whatyou saw. i dint think it would be that obvious. neither did i think the reaction i got from you guys would be so massive. i regret a fucking lot for taking that one thing that mght have changed your impression of me. it wasnt until ben finally talked to me on the way to laopasat that i finally found the reason to why iv been doing it.iv been to ashamed. even till now to tell anybody bout my problems. i guess nobody would understand how i feel even if i shared.. iv been reduced to tears everytime i think about it. my temper has been runnig short. what am i to do? i dont knownow, i just hope my initial impression hasnt changed. i dont wanna have to deal with it. i just dont.
homed after tht


i guess thts all i can go for now. im moodless and i wont make myself feel worse. goodbye