new and fresh

yes. a new blog.
iv cut down on a lot.
no more fancy blogskins, no more links...
im going back to what in my opinion a blog is supposed to be.
just a page for you to write your own opinions and reflects.
everytime i log onto the com, the first thing id do is look at blogs tht contain other peoples life stories.
reading up on whats the ups and downs in their lives.
but recently, iv realized, its the updating of and changes in their lives whch affect me. makes me sad.
cos those changes are that of my friends. its their lives which are changing, moving on without me.
they maybe out there enjoying the company of others while im left behind
im fucking sick of being the doormat everyone wants me to be.
the one who has to be there when something goes wrong.
the one who the blame gets pushed upon.
the one who listens to everyone rants on major happy stuff.
i want to live for myself and not as props for them
hence. frm now, this is MY blog. to talk about the things i like. the things i want to say ABOUT ME.
im sick of being aunt agony as iv been practicaly most of my life.
yes i enjoy seeing people happy. to me darling bestfriends and close friends. sure confide in me. tell me things, cos thats my obligation and honour as a friend to do so. but if your out to show off and expose all your little happy things which you think will make me feel upset. fuck off.
im starting this blog with an intention to forget all previous posts.
to delete all my archive memories from last blogs.
to those whom read this, please do not go around spreading my url.
i just fucking need to be loved